School? Work?

I have just begun my spring quarter of classes. Only a few days in and it's already not going well. I can't seem to focus on my studies. I think a lot of it has to do with the fact I hate school and I have no clue what I am going for anymore. I had an idea unfortunately even the online degrees would require me to attend some classes at the school. There are three different locations about and none of which are close enough for me to feel comfortable going. Even when I was doing better it was not an option. I have not actually had to attend school since my junior year of high school which was oh, about 9 years ago. My senior year I was home-schooled due to the agoraphobia. I have been attending school full time because as long as I am a full time student I am still able to be accepted under my mom's insurance plan through her work until I am 26. Well, I turn 26 in about a month. As Pooh would say, "Oh, bother!"



I've been going to school off and on for a few years now. I've never really had a good idea of a major. I did for awhile but with not knowing when I will ever be able to attend classes to actually finish it has made me lose any interest I had left, and I didn't have a ton to begin with. I've never been a big fan of school and the only classes I really excelled in were art classes and psych classes. I stopped working in October, which was not a good thing but I just couldn't get myself to go anymore. I stopped working but my bills are still coming. Plus, now that I am looking at not having health insurance (sigh) I need to figure out something.

Which got me to wondering, what does someone dealing with agoraphobia do for work? I know some are able to make it to a job after awhile but what about in the meantime? Or for those who can't at all? I want to start thinking about my future and saving money but where do I start when I am not sure when I'll be able to go back to work? I remember it was only about a year and a half ago when I was working as a bartender! Now, I don't even feel comfortable going to bars.

On a totally different subject, I started a little project today. I planted some seeds in yogurt containers. I got the idea from the eco-etsy blog, which is on my list of blogs I follow. I am all about going green and this blog has some really cool tips and ideas. I've always wanted a garden. :)

Anyway, to end this blog, I found a nice Winnie the Pooh quote while I was looking for a picture. Maybe I will try to remember this since all of this school/work stuff has got me down lately.

“Rivers know this: there is no hurry. We shall get there some day.”