Reached my goal!

I am very happy to say that I was able to make it out on Friday! The day started out fine, I didn't really get nervous about it until about 6ish. I had been talking to one of my girl friends during the day. She and her husband and some other friends of mine were heading out to a bar nearby my house. I haven't seen them in about a year so I thought I might try to say hi to them too since they were so close.

Now, it's been since last July since I really went out with friends so I decided to do a little shopping. I bought a cute black dress to wear to out to see my super delicious friend. After all, I decided I wanted to make an impression on him! I headed out about 8:30 to see my friends at the first bar. I was totally nervous by then. I didn't even get out of my neighborhood, I was shaking so much. So I drove back home and called a friend. Chatted for a bit and went out to try again. I stopped at Walgreens first to just see how I did going there and then I headed out to see my friends. I was still pretty nervous but I made it out there. Unfortunately, the place was packed and they were all the way at the back of the sports bar. I walked in, hugged all my friends, and walked right back out! I was still kind of shaking and my friends all knew what was up so they were cool with it. Let me pause for a moment and just say that I really appreciate my friends being so understanding. I was totally grateful for it. :) By then, I was a little doubtful I'd be able to make it to Elite. But I headed that way anyway, I have been looking forward to going all week and I'd made up my mind I would try all night if I had to! I made it on the first try and it wasn't really busy which I think helped me a lot.

I ended up staying till close, which was about 3 hours. That was much more than I expected from myself but for some reason I found myself pretty comfortable after awhile. I think it was that I was moving around a lot and some distractions came up that got my mind off of the anxiety. Plus, I find myself feeling very comfortable around my super delicious friend. It was very comforting to have someone there I could just walk over to and hug or hold hands if I got a little anxious. Plus, I must say, it was rather distracting to watch him DJ since I find him utterly irresistable. And it was kind of cool to be up there watching him do whatever...since I had no idea what everything was for. Maybe next time. :) I forgot how much I missed dancing and being out so I was so happy that it worked out.

The rest of the weekend went pretty well. Saturday, I made it to the gym to actually work out and today I made it to the temple and then baked some brownies since my super delicious friend has a birthday tomorrow. :)