Meds

So I really don't like meds. At all. It's not that I don't think they are helpful in general, but for me personally they haven't done much but upset me more. Yet, everyone I talk to keeps telling me that I need to just find the one that works for me. The idea of going through trial and error with several medications until I find one that has the least upsettting side affects isn't very hopeful to me. But I keep getting told that is what I really should be doing. Like it's my best option. Isn't there another way? I want to be able to change my thinking patterns. I've had anxiety for so long that I think that it's almost a knee-jerk reaction now to think negatively. I really feel that if I could just "re-wire" my thinking habits and have more belief in myself that it would help a lot. I know that eventually in order to really get past this, I am just going to have to face it. There are so many times where I wish I could just find an "easy' button for this and push it but I know life doesn't work like that. I think that if I had some better coping skills and a different train of thought that facing it would be much easier. On the bright side, things this week have been picking up after a raelly tough few days. I got a call back from someone and they may be able to talk to me on the phone. I'm defintely hoping for the best!